Day 3

Day 3 of my appetite suppressants and low carbs (none after lunch) and I'm down 2lb.  I realize it might be water weight.  Goodness knows I've been peeing every 5 seconds- especially last night which is why I didn't sleep very well.  But, I'm hopeful.  I hate that I'm watching the number on the scale so carefully, but I feel I have to do it.  I know I need to lose 70lb.  And once I do I'll still be considered overweight, if not obese.

We had birthday celebrations at work today.  Cheesecake and brownies.  Two of the most delicious things in the world.  I ate none.  There were also strawberries and grapes.  I ate none.  Why, you say?  Fruit isn't bad for you.  No, it's not, but by allowing myself to eat some of it, I'm sure my brain would translate that to, oh a nibble is fine.  And then I'd take another and another.  I can't risk it.  I'm aiming for 5lb/week kind of results here, at least for the first few weeks.  In order to do that, I must be strict.

I'm about a quarter of the way through the book "Why We Get Fat" and it's making some sense to me.  Not entirely.  The guy is trying to say that diet and exercise don't make you lose weight.  And that exercise always makes you hungrier and therefore eat more.  When I was exercising my maximum, I actually ate less.  I also ate healthier.  And I lost 120lb on the diet/exercise plan.  I DO think that what you eat also has a lot to do with it.  Since I'm not exercising as much right now, I'm eating a lot less to make up for it, in addition to changing what I eat.  For example, there are pierogies in the freezer calling my name.  I can't have them just now.  I'm not sure what I'll do this weekend.  That'll be the real test.  I'll want pita chips and beer, and I really should stay away.